I was ready to see my dog's ashes yesterday, so I got the box down, took out the gold tin that her remains are in and sat there for 15 minutes preparing myself for what I was going to see.
At first I opened up the tin a crack. and I saw a bag in there. No big deal, right? I finally was brave enough to open the tin all the way and I am not kidding my dog (the greatest dog ever) remains were placed in something that resembled a poop bag or a garbage bag and I still have yet to see her remains. Do the vets really think it is ok to put people's pets ashes in a garbage bag? One of the reasons I was so big on getting Allie's ashes were that I did not want her ashes to go to a landfill, but I guess either way her ashes were going in a garbage bag. And now I have to prepare myself for looking at her ashes again. But I think it will be alright in the end because I know after doing it I will feel better about myself....kind of like I'm not afraid anything that have to do with Allie and that her remains are no longer in a bag.
So Allie, I'm sorry it took me eight months to look in the tin, but you will not be in a garbage bag for much longer because you deserve a much better place to rest.
Love you always!
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