Anti-Depressants

I really hope these pills that I'm taking help my anxiety and depression. Yes, I have been avoding school because of the situation and I feel ugly on the inside and the outside. I feel gross and I feel like a man with all of my hair.  I feel so angry inside that I have so many problems, PCOS, being over weight at 17, low muscle tone, speech problems, anxiety and depression. Lately I feel like I have been bringing my parents down because I have been feeling so low and I feel bad which is the reason why I wanted to kill myself. Heaven is supposed to be peaceful, I want peace. Living is not peaceful, it is messy and causes me a lot of depression living with myself. I feel bad that I ruined my parents life and that they had a daughter like me when they could have lived a much better life without me. I just feel like my life isn't worth living. I hate myself so much.