2013-The Year of Caroline

If 2012 was the year of confusion and loss, than 2013 was the year of the better-off Caroline! 2012 was a difficult year for me as I had both Pneumonia and Lyme antibodies that were causing me to act differently also along with goodbyes (what I thought I wanted, but chose not to want to save many people including myself from pain and losing friends). Although these two things were difficult, I had no idea just how horrible 2012 would wind up being, in late October Allie(the cutest and the BEST dog ever) died.

2013 started out rocky for me, but it turned out to be a wonderful year for me! Once again Veronica Mars saved my life.

I should probably go back to how VM saved me in the beginning. I first discovered the show with my sister on our spring break in 2007 (I was turning 13 in a few weeks) after lying on the couch for the entire weekend due to being sick. Veronica, even though she is a fictional character is somebody who I want to be because of her endearing and loving, but at the same time I will get revenge on you and you will regret it attitude.
In 8th grade I got stuck on a team with three girls (who I was friends with in 7th grade) that I no longer wanted to be friends with because I was a thousand times classier than they were. If being stuck on the same team as they were, wasn't bad enough half way through the year one of the girls was also in my gym class (thank you guidance counselor for knowing my hatred for being stuck on a team with these girls who I no longer wanted to be friends with and sticking them in the same gym class as me). So yeah, Veronica saved my life in 8th grade because I kept thinking about her....if she could lose her best friend, her mother walking out on her family, her dad losing his job as sheriff, her ex-boyfriend being her potential brother, being raped, no longer being in the 09er class I think I would be okay because well my dad still had a job, I wasn't dating anyone that could possibly be my brother, and well I was never raped. And I even took Veronica's advice and got tough.
Freshman Year was a million times better as I had zero classes with any of these girls and I even became friends with a few other girls who I actually wanted to be around. At the end of this year I met two guys and well even started to like one of them because well he was/is hilarious, made me feel beautiful at a time where I felt less than beautiful because well PCOS and not being on any medicine not the best combination. Anyway than the friend may or may not have did something that I didn't really approve of, but I kept liking the guy's friend because he was/is the nicest guy that I have ever met(and maybe still want a future with him thanks to my lovely family who loves Michigan). In junior year, 2012 for me as I explained it was all about losing and being confused.

And now 2013....so on March 13th it was announced that Veronica would be coming back. from March on I have greatly enjoyed receiving emails about this project because this show is probably in my top five favorite shows of all time! Also, I now realize that I enjoy being an "only"  child (I love you, Rebecca), but it is extremely fun getting to choose what to do. I also switched up the way that I did school, taken  college one day at a time, and had a lot of fun, and had amazing trips and food (I love you Founding Farmers)! Oh, yeah and driving more and discovering new bands (icona pop=BEST BAND EVER), oh and Ray Charles (the second cutest puppy ever)!

yeah, so 2013 was a pretty amazing year and I have a feeling 2014 will continue to be a fabulous year, after all I am turning 20 and The Veronica Mars Movie is coming out too and how can you not love this: http://vimeo.com/77887266. Ahhh, LoVe and Ryan Hansen never ever change, you are AMZING!

Christmas 2011

Christmas.... I'll never forget how you would think every present was for you. Like on your last christmas you waited for two hours to open up two presents, but i guess it's those memories that will last a lifetime. Hope you are having a wonderful Christmas and get lots of presents oh yeah and eat a ton of cake. Also thank you for everything, if you played a role in it at all!  Merry Christmas and love you! Oh yeah and today is the 25th, so you know once again I'm sure you are telling everyone to give you many gifts and an extra cake just for you! Also: Love. Be Merry and Bright. Laugh and Live.

You're Wrong and I'm Right

I hate it when anyone says I'm not doing things in the right way, just SHUT THE F UP, I have way more class and substance than anyone, so with that being said, I think I am awesome and everybody else have to come join me up on my level, meaning that I am above everyone else.
Why am I above everyone else, because no one else seems to have the style, charisma, and intellect that I have. So basically what I'm trying to say here is that everyone basically should get on my level, because they look stupid otherwise.

Allie,
As of Today, it has been exactly a year since we've seen you!
Since the five of us had only 15 or so minutes with you, I just wanted to tell you a few things that I didn't have time to tell you.
First off, Thank You for greeting us at the door and showing us that you were still you---so sweet and loving, and hungry. It was like you came back to us!

Secondly, after mom and dad came back from the vet, they told us that you took your last treat from mom. Thanks for you know, eating the treat!
Thirdly, Thank You for being the best dog, someone could ever hope to have. I would only be so lucky if I get to experience that kind of love again.
Fourthly, (Oh, Oh) I love you so!
I love you as big as the world,

Caroline
PS.
Also if I do say so myself, even though you were dying, you look beautiful and extremely happy (probably because of the people food)!

A year ago...

Allie-
Today is October 24, 2013, which means that tomorrow is THE 25th. A year ago, I woke up crying and begging mom to let me stay home to help her take you to the vet. Thinking that you had hurt your paw---some simple thing that could be fixed with a course of antibiotics or cream and that in a few days you would be better. The problem was, instead we found out you had Congestive Heart Failure. The vet handed mom thousands of pills, ok fine maybe not that many, but many more pills than I was expecting that we would get that day. Mom and I spent the rest of the night fitfully sleeping and I was just praying to God that you would live just a few more hours until Rebecca could come home.
until tomorrow,
Caroline

Yeah for Kicking People out of Their Houses...

12 years....
New Schools
Birthdays
Becoming an adult
Painting
learning how to play the piano
driving 
becoming an addict to my tv shows
Albals
Discovering new blogs (thanks People!)
The Coma Blanket, Oprah, the Action News Song, and our office
the color tan
new tan carpeting
Penang....
college
Awesome Neighbors
laughter
crying
love
and goodbyes...
I knew before we even moved in that I could picture living here, and I can't picture experiencing all of these memories anywhere but here.

Our House was never officially on the market, we kind of just told the lady we wanted her house as she was thinking about selling and the rest was history.

Moons

Every time I look at the moon I think of her. This is what the moon looked like when she left. 5

EvEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee EvE