Penang

You had a killer smile
that could trap any girl
into wanting to become
your girlfriend.
I guess that's why
my brain
and my heart
aren't connecting
because I became a whole
different person
when I was near you.
I was happy, carefree, and
confident.
A few months ago
I saw you as we
were both driving.
I had those feelings back and they felt  good.
Like there wasn't any bad feelings after the good feelings.
A week later, I told my mom that I felt feelings
and then a week later she brought up their Michigan trip.
But I don't want anything to happen on my terms.
If anything were to happen. I would want it to happen naturally
around town.
So my parents wanting me to go to Michigan
and think about you
when I want to keep going with my own life and not think or force anything upon me
threatened my since of self because I finally found a place where I was (and still am ) happy with rocking myself and at the same time keeping an open mind where my life takes me.